Single blessed-pooh?

My batchmate's going to get married this Saturday, to a longtime boyfriend of hers (I think they've been together for the last 6 or 7 years or so). Well, I'm going to attend the wedding (We've known each other ever since we were in 1st grade) and I'll meet my former dormmates again, too, catch up with the latest goings on with their lives.

Now, this made me start thinking. Yes, I'm still single, I haven't HAD any boyfriend yet, and this wedding just made me realize how very lonely I actually am, and also makes me wonder if there is anybody out there who is interested in me after all…I could do things that I wouldn't be able to do with a boyfriend at my side (I can do everything I want in my spare time), but still, when I see couples, I just think of my single blessedness and I get very sad lately (I ignored them for the last 6 or 7 years). My soon-to-be bride friend is just so lucky to have a man who stuck with her through thick and thin, and that they really made their relationship work all throughout the span of their years as a couple…meh, and the romantic in me is kicking very violently at my heartstrings or whatever: she actually found her true love. I told myself to wait, wait…it's been a long time, and I'm still waiting…what exactly am I waiting for? My prince on his shining white horse? My knight who would just tell me that everything's fine just because he's there with me? what if there's nobody to wait around for and I just waited 11 years of my life waiting? Should I be condemned to a life of waiting till I breathe my very last? 

Maybe that's what I'm really good at. Waiting.  

Fashion senses

I never really envisioned myself as a woman of fashion, though I have my own sense of style (as what I like to think). Then again, I never really cared much about how other people dress, except when the frustrated mangaka decides to kick up in full gear in me. I like designing outfits, and I have still an ongoing doujin which I started during my college years (up to now) where I try to dress up my characters new clothes everytime they show up, in order to give readers a sense tha they're taking a bath. LOL. XD Anyway, I've written this out of love for my favorite character and her perfect antagonist, and what else. XD I will try to add the other character later, I still have to look for her fashion sense. Gee, I know how that sounds.

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Hallyu!

My, I've only discovered what the Korean word "hallyu" means a few days ago. Might as well post somethingrelated to it. This was written 2 days before Dae Jang Geum (or Jewel In The Palace) ended its run on primetime TV here in the Philippines.

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Ridiculous-ness…

Yep, I'm a freak regarding puns/in jokes/side jokes/bashing on a favorite character or two or whatever, etc. There's a thread in the forums I go to that showcases silly pictures about Gundam related shows. Then, there's a Japanese site which likes making fun of Gundam SEED and SEED Destiny (mostly bashing Shinn Asuka and Athrun Zala, and showcasing Kira Yamato's GODLIKE ability to harem-jack. ). I collect the ridiculous pics that I like in my hard drive. I don't know, I like funny stuff so much. XD

Loopy

 I'm on an anime trip today. XD

I found lyrics for the song "Loop" by Maaya Sakamoto, from animelyrics.com. It's the end theme for the current anime series, Tsubasa Chronicles, by my idols of the shoujo manga world, CLAMP. The first time I heard this song I felt as if my heart sprouted Tsubasa and flew. XD I really liked the music, and its lyrics. Here it is.

Loop

nee  kono machi ga yuuyami ni somaru toki wa
sekai no dokoka de asahi ga sasu
kimi no te no naka  sono hana ga kareru toki wa
chiisana tane wo otosu darou

fumikatamerareta tsuchi wo michi da to yobu no naraba
me wo tojiru koto de mo ai ka naa?

kono hoshi ga tairanara futari deaetenakatta
otagai wo toozakeru you ni hashitteita
SUPIIDO wo yurumezu ni  ima wa donna ni hanarete mo
meguru kiseki no tochuu ni mata mukaiau no darou

nee  kono michi wo yuuyami ga sariiku toki ni
kono namida  tsuretette

katari kakete kuru moji wo shousetu to yobu no nara
todokanai kotoba wa yume ka naa?

yodomi naku nagareteku kawa ni ukabeta ko no ha de
umi wo mezashite kumo ni natte ame de furou
tooi kimi no chikaku de ochita tane wo sodate you
chigau basho de kimi ga kiduite kureru to iin dakedo

kono hoshi ga taema naku  mawari tsudukete iru kara
chiisaku aketa mado no soto  keshiki wo kae
watashi no aishita hana  sotto mebaeru kisetsu de
meguru kiseki no sono hate  mata mukaiau no darou
mukaiau no darou
kururu wawaru kuru kuru to
kuru kuru kimi no mawari wo

English Translation:

Hey, while this town is covered by twilight,
The morning sun is shining down somewhere else in this world.
As that flower withers away in your hand,
A little seed probably falls into the ground somewhere.

More love poems?

 Yes, I'm on a gushy feely touchy mood today. Is it because I'm about to take the licensure exams? Oo;;

Just got this from a newspaper clipping ages ago. Hope you like it.

Happy reading.

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Everlasting love

This is the first of my reflections about true love, anime style. Who says anime is just for kids? Here is the first example of how teenage love could be something beyond puppy love and even beyond the grave. I dedicate this post and the other "Everlasting love" posts to 3 of my most favorite couples.

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Feeling intellectual…

Almost one month to go before the licensure exams…T____T all I have are a couple of notes and books to study, no review classes for me…I sure hope I pass….T____T

I just finished the Da Vinci Code. It only adds oomph to some books I've read owned by a Freemason relative of mine. Including that one about the Rosslyn Chapel. I want to visit that place! Well, maybe if  I become famous or won the lottery of a billion dollars or something…ha ha…I'm going to tour entire England and Egypt…and Greece. And Africa. And maybe Japan for my anime fixes. I definitely have to buy my own figurine collection/mech model collection when I have enough money. I feel so left out in terms of trying to make models of the said mechs. I only have an Evangelion Unit 01, a Deathscythe Hell Custom, and a Sandrock Custom, plus a G Unit Geminass model given to me by my cousin 6 or 7 Christmases ago, and a BB Senshi Samurai Gundam given by one of my girl friends. Would somebody be nice to me to send me a Strike Freedom Gundam one? Also, I've been looking for pictures of Cloud Strife and Fenrir (his motorcycle in Advent Children) but all the pics I could come up with are figurine pics. Now, I DEFINITELY want one of those…*o* Sorry Inori, but before Sephiroth, Cloud was my koi…XD Fenrir is shown in the GIF I'm using below.

The sword that Cloud carries in Advent Children is an offshoot of his Buster Sword in the original FFVII. It is called the First Tsurugi. I have no idea if the swords that pop out of Fenrir's sides have names. Inori, you could get the GIF above if you want. XD

I'll come back later with my look alike post. XD
   
 

Soup No. 5

Doodled on CS a while ago and made a couple of sigs. Too bad the JPEG format was more than the required sig format of the forums I go to (animesuki, beerkada, seedforums). I made it into GIF format to save on KB. The sigs are REALLY doodles, that is why they're kinda squiggly. Here are 2 versions of the same sig:

With Tsubasa
http://i22.photobucket.com/albums/b310/Essedel/BeautifulOnes2.gif

Without Tsubasa
http://i22.photobucket.com/albums/b310/Essedel/BeautifulOnes2.jpg

This is my favorite love triangle of the moment. XD

I also made a couple of GIFs/avatars. You could take some of them provided you ask me first. I made these with Image Ready/Photoshop CS. Take note that these are my first GIFs/avatars that is why they're not as sleekly polished as the other GIFs/avatars out there.

SEED Destiny

Final Fantasy Advent Children

Another find…

WHOA! e.e. cummings is shaping up to be my favorite poet. Here's another poem I found. (this is recited during the Final Season commercial of Will and Grace)

 
i carry your heart with me(i carry it in)
 
i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
                                    i fear

no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

It's so BEAUTIFUL! XD It sums up the feelings I have for this guy who Inori knows. It's like the song Eyes On Me from Final Fantasy VIII, which I also believe, was written for an incurable romantic with an unrequited love like me.

Eyes On Me

Whenever sang my songs
On the stage on my own
Whenever sang my words
Wishing they would be heard
I saw you smiling at me
Was it real or just my fantasy?
You'd always be tehre at the corner
Of this tiny little bar

Darling so there you were
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure?
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are not dreamer…

I plan on writing a novel about this guy. I guess it would be too late but hwat the heck. I think he was my first love, and I met him when I was in kindergarten. Kinda scary. But it was nice. Then I met him again after 20+ years. It's strange, how Fate seemed to be playing a hand into this, but of course, that was all it was…fate. And I would never meet him again.

Of sinangag and The Ways Of The Kitchen…

I'm planning to hit 10 + pages of these random "OMGs" to ensue. It just sucks that my blog over at Friendster isn't THAT easy to edit, or whatever. It always makes my PC hang. Oh well.

I made the PERFECT sinangag a while ago. It was a little sticky, but what the heck. It was EDIBLE! :D we had mussels with corn and malunggay leaves for lunch, then we had yellowfin tuna pinangat for dinner + the sinangag. I always wanted to make sinangag the way my mom makes it, and it happened a while ago. You could say that I'm a sinangag freak just like the other members of my family are.  I've learned the best way to cook sinangag is on a teflon coated pan, like the way they do in those dozens of mixed Chinese fried rice-in-a-box kiosks we see in the malls nowadays. It doesn't stick to the pan or anything, and best of all, the rice doesn't get burnt.The only thing left to learn in my learning repertoire or whatever in cooking is learning how to cook chicken curry. I'd probably die a happy woman after that. XD 

e.e. cummings

This is my MOST favorite poem. It's written by e.e. cummings.

somewhere i have never traveled
e.e. cummings

somewhere i have never travelled; gladly beyond
any experience, your eyes have their silence:
in your most frail gesture are things which enclose me,
or which i cannot touch because they are too near

(i do not know what it is about you that closes
and opens; only something in me understands
the voice of your eyes is deeper than all roses)
nobody, not even the rain, has such small hands.

The first time I heard this poem, I was immediately drawn to it. I have no idea why, but it really made my heart ache that first time. I consider it my most sacred poem. I just want to share all of this with you.

How to add avatars?

As of now, pakapa-kapa pa ako sa paglalagay ng avy. XD Pagpasensyahan na't masyadong mukhang ewan the blog ko. Di kasi ako mahilig mag diary eh…:P

Hello world!

 WAKOKOKO! Bago itich. Anyway…HELLO MUNDO!

What is going on?! O.O

 Well, sorry sa pangungulit…nagloloko ang posts…O.O;;